Soter, Oh So Not For Me.

It has not worked. It is not working. It will not work.

I guess I know myself better than anybody else after all.

Ciao!

The Brave One

A movie starred by Jodie Foster. It's about a woman who struggles to gain recovery from a brutal attack that killed his fiance and also almost took her life. You really gotta have a brave heart to stand this flick.

What a great way to heal a broken heart. :| Time to dance, Jam.

Vacacion Verano Parte Dos: Puerto Galera 2008

And so I guess the stress was all worth it.

It was our first time to go out of town. We just usually hang out, grab some drinks and we're good. Our summers naman were usually spent with our families. That's why I really wanted it to happen, with all of us present. But due to fortuitous events, only four of us made it this year.

This is the start of our yearly outings, my beloved friends. But I am not planning next year's. Haha! Cheers to more salty waters and mighty waves! Or cheers to more travels, anywhere!

Savoring Oreo and the moment with my Mader Mitch. Yes, this is how we call each other ever since high school. :)


Keno, Me and Jojo at Batangas Port


Us four, "The Founders", while waiting for the boaaat! 9:45 huh, it's 12 already! Whaatta liar barker, and oh! Paper sched!


Finally.



Enjoying the splash!


This is my favorite. After x number of tries. Nagawa rin. Haha!


And dahil napagtripan ako ng mga mahal kong kaibigan pati na rin ng mabuting alon... Captured! Spell poise, Jam. Spell poise.


Heart Attack! Funny and heart-grabbing game! I lost myself for 10 minutes!




Taken by Hazel, the friendly server. :)


Meet Hazel...


The cliff Keno and I love! Jojo's sleeping. Tinatamad pa si Mitch bumaba. Sayang ang view!



Sun sun sun 'til my skin's burnt...


Till we see again, White Beach!



I am lucky to have these people in my life. This may sound really cheesy but my barkada really is a priceless gift from heaven. :) I know that they are the people who won't ever turn their backs on me, (aside from my family). No matter how harsh I become. How harsh we become. Basta we know naman kasi na we just want the best for each other, always.

Funny but sometimes, it feels as if we are the stars of One Tree Hill or Friends. Next time, I'll write about who's who and why. Haha. Mukhang fun eh.

Joey, Jayvie, Mader Ruth, Loyce, you're missed! :(

More pictures on my multiply site www.starburssst.multiply.com
*Some of the pictures are grabbed from Jojo's cam.

Boiling Point Reached 2

Yes, I reached my boiling point. It was very traumatic for me to plan that Galera outing. It was hard for me to believe the struggles, really. At one point, I wanted to make myself believe na "No Jam, these are all lies. Pinapakaba ka lang ng mga yan. Helllooo? Imposible naman na halos lahat magkaron ng excuse!" It was hard for me to believe the problems kasi our barkada really is solid. As in, we all don't think that there's one person who'll ever feel that he or she'll be left out. Basta, ganun. Maybe because we're friends not just in words but in hearts talaga. Haha. We're family! And that is what I like most in us. Okay, I promised myself na after the weekend, whatever happens, I'll write about the thing that made me reach my boiling point sooo, let me share the reasons behind all the stress I encountered last week. (Now that I'm in my most normal and hippy happy self.)

Monday. Nagkasakit si Mitch ng weekend, thus hindi pa siya nakakapagpaalam. At hindi siya madaling payagan. Ok, so the pessimistic me screams "Shit, I can foresee nega vibes!"

Tuesday. Me, texting people last minute reminders. Few replies because of busy scheds. OJT, Summer classes, Duties, Exams. Mitch finally gets the courage to ask permission from her parents. And Tito says, "Nakuuu, naririnig ko nanaman ang pangalan ni Jamie." Ok, good job. Me forcing Jayvie to go to Ruth's place to ask if she could come. Ok, walang issue to, si Jayvie lang ang pwede because Keno's out with his family to spend his bday. Joey, Mitch and Jo can't.

Wednesday. Joey texts "Jam, sorry baka hindi ako makasama on Sat. May exam ako. Gusto ko talaga sumama but epal class ko." So, additional nega vibes. Mitch still doesn't get the "Yes" we've been dying to hear. Keno and I meet with Ruth. Ruth confims that she really couldn't come because of a validity exam she'd have to take. SADNESS overflows.

Thursday. I decide to call Mitch's mom. Asks if Mitch could come. Desperateee! 10PM Convo with Mitch, tells me that she got the Yes from her mom already but not yet from her dad. But seems like it's sure na. Happy atleast. Hangs up the phone. Jayvie texts, "My problem ako, I think I would have an operation on Saturday." Okay, so back to sadness. Calls Jayvie. See that there really is a problem. Me, trying to get some sleep. Jojo texts, "Eto ang problemang hinahanap mo. Sinasama ako nila Mama sa Pangasinan." Ok, so heart attack!

Friday. Only sure ones. Me, Keno, Mitch. Jojo wakes up at 3PM. Convo at 3, he's coming.

So there's four of us. Friday. Still no sleep. Wary that a problem might still come before we head for Puerto. Seryoso, stress talaga mamennn! Ngayon nalang ulit ako nastress ng ganun. Hahaha! It was a morality check 'n test for me too! Kasi naman, I really really wanted us to be complete. I miss them terribly, ok? Parang a part of me tells them, "Sige na Joey, cut mo na yan, ngayon lang naman eh. Jayvie, tiisin mo nalang yung sakit ng ngipin mo, sa Monday ka na magpaopera. Ruth, wala bang re-test yan??" Diba, ang pangit pakinggan. But because I really wanted us to be complete in this outing, oo nasabi ko. Shit, sooo wrong.

Jojo, Mitch, Keno and I still pushed through with the plan. And, super saya. Super. Super. Super. I'll post an entry about it soon.

I'M BACK! ;)

Boiling Point Reached

I am so hurt, I don't even know how to express how I feel now.

Maybe not now.

I still hope and want to believe it'll happen.

The Bucket List

Before I headed for Cebu, I watched this tearjerker starred by Jack Nicholson and Morgan Freeman. I turned reeed. Really really red. Naging red-nosed reindeer nanaman ako. I love the script.

When he closed his eyes, his heart was opened.

You measure yourself by the people who measure themselves by you.

This movie recognizes life's true value by depicting the lives of two different people who unexpectedly met in a time of sickness and trial. They created a bucket list that they promised to accomplish before they die. In spite of their disparities, they allowed themselves to learn from each other. Real friendship brought these people to find their common humanity.

I really am a sucker for philosophical stuff.

The Cebu Stumble

My sibs and I, together with the love of their lives went to Cebu last Friday. It was my first time to step on its land and I was very impressed. It was like Manila to me minus the pollution.

I left my heart in Cebu!

On our first night, we went to the hotel to leave our belongings first and then went to eat dinner at Resto 27, Crossroads after. We learned that this place is Cebu's high street. In Manila, it's Serendra or Eastwood at the very least.

Poor kids living the good life...




We didn't want to sleep the night off and so we were thinking of something to do after we ate. We wanted to party and dance but we couldn't because we were with Jem. But it's okay. Jem's really a cool kid. We get along pretty well except when it comes to her hair. It seems as if she's not really fond of fixing herself yet. Haha! Anyway, it was very obvious that we were so tired already and so we just decided to go home.

We wanted to wake up at 6 a.m. to fix ourselves before going to the beach but we delayed it to 7:30. Haha, it's funny because we all heard the alarm but just didn't mind it. We met really good people, Mr. and Mrs. Irizari. They accompanied us to Tambuli Resorts and Cebu Beach Club.



Loving the feel of the salty breeze and water against my bod...


Basking in the sun...


And because we are hippy hoppy jumpees...


I love the resort. I was just a bit disappointed in the beach because it was full of algae. Haaay. Sayang.

We headed back to the hotel at around 7 p.m. and rested. Ate Jus tried her best to get a tan but her white white skin failed her just like what my tushee did to me the day after. Haha.

Sunday morning, we got ready to hear mass. We went to Cebu's Basilica del Sto. Nino. I was astonished with the interior of the cathedral. It's awesome. I love its paintings. We also dropped by its wishing fountain.

I so love this painting...




The place is like Quiapo. :)

We had lunch at Jollibee. Yes, very Pinoy! Loving the ambience eh. Actually, we were really aiming for KFC but we didn't find it after ten minutes of walking (or was it just five but it felt like ten?). What I loved the most about that morning was of course, shopping!!! It's my bestfriend, my ultimate stress reliever. Haha. I love Cebu's Pasalubong Center, I even told Mom that we should go back just for it. Hahaha! I looooooove it. I reallly do. Hahaha! I wish I had more money!!! I love their accessories, shirts, yum-yums. I love everything about it.


See? We got our pasalubongs ready! But, we didn't feel like going home yet. Haha.



In my short stay in Cebu, I learned quite a lot about it. Yes a looot. Haha. I learned three Cebuano words. Pangadaygon for purihin, Daghang salamat for maraming salamat and kayoy-i for maawa. They also don't have a "yu" sound. Say the word's Dios, they say, Diyus. And! It seemed like it's a fave spot of hybrid couples to do their smoochie-moochies. Haha. American+Pinay=Love. We look exotic daw, but grabe. Haha. These Americans really appreciate a different kind of Pinay beauty. As in you'll see a couple in every direction. Hahaha! You'll never run out of these in Cebu.

See most of the Cebu escapade pics in my multiply site. www.starburssst.multiply.com