On Stumbling, and FALLING!

3.56am
A bit too early for a little mishap. And I said, Start your day with a smile. :|

It happened yet again. I was rushing to the choir loft because I didn't wanna miss the first song so I was running from where the car was parked up to the church, when suddenly, (I really don't know what happened here), nadapa na naman ako. Bakit ba ang lampa ko? Seriously. ??!!

It left me with neat, symmetrical bruises on both legs. And oh, a few scratches on the knees. :(

Countdown, 3 DAYS TO GO. I shall start making friends with these little imps!

Warmth In The Cool

Went out with Te Me, Pao and Pamei - some of the few real people I know. ;) It was pure bliss. I missed those laughs I get when I'm with people I love. :)

Had dinner at Heaven n Eggs after hours of walking. Haaay, couches are super heroes! Reaaally!

I have been kinda philosophizing on Christmas 'coz I can hardly feel it (even in the midst of Simbang Gabi and the uber cold atmosphere, which btw leaves my hands and soles really chilly, all the time!!!) but this particular date with M, P, and P was the first to make me feel the holiday spirit. Aaaw.

6 DAYS TO GO!

Love you guys! Hugs! <3

Personality Test, It Is!

This is the most accurate personality test I've ever answered! Try it and I think you'll be amazed! Check out http://ipersonic.com ;)

I'm a Determined Realist. I so agree. Nakakatawa coz habang binabasa ko, natatawa din yung iba because ako nga raw ito. Hehe!

Determined Realists like to bear responsibility and welcome challenges. They are stable, reliable persons. External contacts are very important to them; they mix well and are very active. They are excellent organisers and are very happy when things are done correctly and punctually; they can quickly react impatiently if others are not as conscientious, orderly and dutiful as they are. They prefer structured work which produces visible results quickly to abstract, long-drawn-out processes. Determined Realists have no problem with routine as long as it serves efficiency. However, they very much dislike unexpected and unpredictable occurrences which mess up their careful plans. Once they have committed themselves to a cause they do this with dedication and are willing to make considerable sacrifices for it.

Determined Realists do not avoid conflicts and criticism but face up to them and look for solutions. As they have a keen eye for the errors and shortcomings of others and are often quick at expressing criticism, they sometimes rub people up the wrong way especially when they lose their temper and jump to conclusions. Due to their marked sense of justice they are quickly willing to correct themselves and never take offence if someone speaks to them frankly. You do not have to seek hidden motives with them; you always know where you are. Determined Realists are often found in executive positions as they combine commitment, competence and the ability to assert themselves. In their spare time, they often also accept responsibility in clubs and other institutions.

Traditions rate highly with Determined Realists. They attend every family event and never forget a birthday or wedding anniversary. Family and friends are very important to them. With their open, communicative manner, they find it easy to get to know people and have a large circle of friends and acquaintances. They are never superficial, but reliable and loyal friends who are always there when they are needed. Determined Realists take their relationships very seriously - they dream of finding a partner for life. In a love relationship, they seek above all stability and loyalty and here, too, they are willing to invest a lot in a harmonious togetherness. Determined Realists master crises or difficult phases with composure; they would never think of breaking a promise given. As a partner, one can always rely on their support.

Adjectives which describe your type

extroverted, practical, logical, planning, direct, structured, conscientious, responsible-minded, self-confident, critical, honest, orderly, reliable, controlled, objective, able to concentrate, resolved, purposeful, communicative, with a sense of duty, tradition-conscious, stable, able to deal with conflicts, solution-oriented, relationship-oriented, efficient, impatient, warm-hearted, competition-oriented

Wishful Thinking

I'm kinda wishing it would take more than 24 hours to make a day.

Exhausted but fulfilled. I think I need more inspiration. ;)

Two Is Bliss!

If there's one thing that I miss doing the most these days, it would be shopping with Jujus. We used to do that very very often during our highschool days - when time was not yet so crucial, and when social network was limited to our respective barkadas and to the two of us (hehe exagge!)

But seriously, I miss going out with my oh-s0-opposite-but-still-most-loved sister in the world. When I don't have her around, I just go shopping with myself because I don't want the feeling of having someone to wait for me while I rummage through multiple pieces of lovely clothing (that may all look just the same for one when I would like to push that they are not! hehe!) either because I feel rushed or because I feel like a time-waster to another person. Yes, I go shopping with some close friends too but we always end up parting ways and meeting up after a couple of hours haha! So, no diff if you come to think about it. With Jujus, I don't feel these things. Either because I'm that comfortable around her or makapal lang talaga ako to waste her time. Hehehe! I'm leaning towards the first 'coz I believe that she feels just the same with me. And if you ask me if I mind, I'll say, "Of course not! ;)"

Anyway, just recently we went out to get some supposedly important stuff for ourselves but unintentionally ended up with some not-so-necessary shopping leaving our pockets more burnt than they already were. Hehe!


Yes, we may have a loooot of differences but our love for shopping (and a few more deep abstract reasons) bridge all these gap!

Yes, it's fun being a girl. But it's a blast being a sister to a cool one. :) Love you, Jujus!

One Sunday With The Kids

I rarely get rest these days. But I will always choose a day with the kids (and maybe lose myself a little bit when I'm with them) over a sweet, long nap. :) Nothing is more rewarding than seeing them smile their hearts out.

Out with the kiddos during one Sunday of my sembreak. :)

In preparation for halloween! Hehe cute pa rin!




At siyempre, hindi talaga papatalo. Hehehe!

Oh, how I miss my sembreak! But above all, how I miss my babies! :x

No Pain, No Gain

Yesterday truly hurt. It made me cry. It hindered me from being my usual self. But yea, I'm sticking to this mantra, for now.

No Pain, No Gain, make me stronger please.

Happy 1st, Lil Mon!

Happy Birthday! Thanks for being great to me and for still being intact! :) Your infectious power always proves itself and helps me find what's lost even if I already slept over it. For all the teeny components, thanks for holding tight in the sheets of kuya's bed and showing yourself to Manang the day after. :) Lalalalove you! More years to come. :) Mwaaah!

Of course, thanks again to my most generous aunt for this wonderful gift! :) Mwaaah!

New Haircut

What do you think?

What suits me better? Long or short hair? ;)

20.

Twenty. Veinte. Twintig. Zwanzig.

Makes me screeaam "Waaah! I'm old!"

BUT! But! But!

This does not make this day less special. Thanks to everyone who remembered! As in I am so touched to hear your birthday greetings. You know who you guys are. :) My heart is just bursting with so much love! And I so so love you all as well! Thank you God for blessing me and loving me so much that you actually made me know these people! <3 I have so much more to be thankful for and the space is not enough. Just, thank you God for everything. You definitely know what's in my heart before I can even say it. :)

I said I will spend this day answering my theo thesis statements but how much fun is that?? Huh?! (Sorry God, I know that you know you are way more heavenly than acads.) Soooo now, I am absolutely not minding the consequences of going against my (supposedly) strict schedule. I still have a lot more hours to spend for theo if I'd be willing to but I just want my birthday to be just as relaxing as I wished it to be. :)

So, here's to more twenty-years to come! :) And here's to more hugs and kisses to go along with it!

Cheers!

This Is Not Just Your Ordinary Kilig Moment

I never thought commuting could give this much pleasure. No amount of rain, smirky faces from a gay man, freecut announcements just when I got to Bel (leaving no more classes for me today) could take this smile off my hippie happy heart.

Thank you, ____, for making my day. <3

If anyone reads this and FROWNS, haha! sorry, but I won't apologize for writing this malandi post. hehehe!

Just A Thought

I missed you my pixiedust. I've been meaning to write in here for quite some time already but there are just some things that keep me from getting my hands on the keys.

This will just be a quick note, though. I just dropped by to leave a quote that is nice to live by, so I am sharing with the few who visit this blog as well.

"Friendship is never about the people who act true to your face. It is always about the people who remain true behind your back."

Makes me miss my friends even more. Will see you soon.

ADVANCED HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO PRECIOUS RELLIN. :)

BS Management - Block P3 '09

So, this was one of the things that kept me busy last Saturday.

Beauty and The Geek, but as you can see, we are the Geeks!

BS Management Block P3 2009!

Block Write Up From Cheska (a.k.a. The Writer's Cut hehehe!)

It was a social experiment, you know.

Different stereotypes and diverse personalites, once put together in the confines of college, are bound to conflict. Well, us? We just sort of clicked.

Probably it’s in how we all agreed to hold a prom during Christmas. Or to play dodgeball like we’re still in kindergarten. Or maybe, it’s in settling to have a photoshoot along the streets of Ortigas in suits and gowns. Then again, there’s our decision that ponds are a perfectly good place to have a bubble bath.

We’re probably one of the many you’ve seen in SOM Mall, gossiping away. But when you’re eyes are caught by something bright and tight, it’s most likely a P3 boy in his newly tailored skinny jeans. Beside them, ranting away, are the P3 girls, perfectly comfortable in slippers and shorts even if there’s a Management class 30 minutes away.

So, here’s to the past four years and to the future as bright as one of our boys’ skinny jeans. May our men still fit in them and may our women never forget, that in the midst of the heel-clacking corporate world, there’s still the comfort of the slippers that once got you sent out of class.


Cheers.

*Picture above taken by Bea, edited by Miggz

Three In A Row, That's How They Roll

I know I am dead tired and exhausted, I haven't had the luxury of time to grab enough sleep, at this point in time I'm awake for 18 hours straight, but I feel like straightening my thoughts out once and for all before I can peacefully sleep.

The reason I woke up so early this morning was because of the fact that this day was supposedly my graduation photoshoot day and I had to have my hair fixed. I was kind of chasing time because my mind was not where it should have been. It honestly felt like a day of multi-tasking. Plus it was raining so hard, the thunder was so cranky that I actually felt a bit scared of it.

So I was thinking, what to do, what to do? For one, I have had to blowdry my hair, I looked for the blower, was hasting, plugged it in one socket, and then boom, it wouldn't want to work. So I guess it suggested something, I plugged it in the wrong socket, oh boy was i dumb! Nakasira pa ako ng blower!

The first thought that came to mind, "oh my god! three in a row, three in a row, three in a row. LEAVE ME ALONE. I WOULD NEVER WANT FOR YOU TO VISIT ME TODAY!"

So I went to school, the traffic was so heavy, good thing the cab driver knew another way to get to school. Got to school, chitchatted with some friends, went to class, then right after my first class, i received a message... "Jam, tuloy ba ang grad photoshoot kung suspended ang classes?"

The next thing I knew, my heart was pounding so hard thinking the bad luck of actually having gone all the way to school with all the props and costume only to find out that I'll be heading home an hour after I arrive.

So what can I do? Accept fate as it is.

Went home. Opened Lil Mon to do loads of stuff, tried finding the printer ink because I needed to print important stuff, but its gone! So where was it? Tried looking for it in the trashcan, none. Just had my hands dirty. Called my sister, then she said, "Oh no! Nabenta ko, I thought it was an empty cartridge!"

And my mouth was dropped wide open. True enough, they say when it comes, it does three times in a row. Actually for this day, it wasn't just three, but this is just enough to still keep me sane already, okay? I just don't want to think of anything more!

FYI, I bought that ink for 900 bucks at Octagon!!! (Don't buy there!) Taga, man! 700 lang yun sa PC HUB (Which happened to be out of stock)! Ang swerte naman ng napagbentahan ng cartridge.

DOZE OFF.

You Put A Smile On My Face

Certainly.

Thanks for being part of my day. Now I can sleep. <3

Where Am I?

I don't know what to blog about. I really don't. But I just feel like blogging at this very moment. There are so many things that need to be done, in fact, I feel like time's not even enough. I just feel bloated. Dunno if I just ate too much for dinner? Oh no, this seems non-sense. But how come, I'm hoping that for every word written, I'd feel better?

I guess I want something but not sure if I want it right now. Is it even there to have? I think I hope it's there. Yes, I'd love to know it's there.

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I don't wanna read for PolSci right now, that is what's certain.

A Love Song For Someone's Someone

I never thought writing a love song for someone whom I do not even love will feel this heart-breaking. I had to extract all emotions not fit for the current position that I am in. So you know, I had to reminisce and it doesn't help at all. This felt like a project I had to accomplish before tomorrow.

You know girl, if you're not special to me, I won't do this. But you betta exercise putting your thoughts down into words ASAP 'coz I don't think I am gonna do this again. =/ I would have to tell you that the whole process made butterflies grow inside my chest and stomache at the same time, and they don't even leave yet right (right right right) now.

On a lighter note, this is a CONGRATULATIONS-TO-ME Day! I did something really important and something really special to me. Yay! :D It feels great to be happy!

You Turn My World Upside Down

There are things that aren't meant to be divulged for the mere act of blurting them out sometimes results in making them turn the other way around. And when they do, we wouldn't always like it.

This is so weird.

You know the feeling when you just can't contain something and you're really meaning to say it but you just have to hold it? Arrgh. It's just too hard to do.

I'm near hyperventilating. I need air and a hug at the same time.

Happy Birthday, Dear Friends!

*Thanks to Chally for the pictures. :)

Carl and Stella on their 3rd year of being in love. :) Talk about real Tsinoy love. Sweeet!

It was a fun night and I must say, it's time well spent! I was actually thinking of going online and blog when I got home from the party but I was just way too tired and sleepy.

Happy birthday to Carl and Stella, more years to come for you, and you both. :)

Thanks for the giant pizza, it sure did fill our empty stomachs. :) teehee!

Picture muna while waiting...

Off we went to Cantina. This is it, Yet! Haha!

Wild and Tamed version of me while holding San Mig

I kind of seemed too hungry for it. In reality, I wasn't. I enjoyed the Weng weng better. :)

Grabe! Nag-wild yung mga tao sa "I've Never"! Put that little finger down!!! HAHAHA! :D

Chally, Miggz and Cheska with Sir Guerra, our cool Finance prof! :) Thanks Sir for partying with us! Hehehe!

We were the few that's sober. Sorry, we rarely get drunk. :) Or maybe we don't at all. Hehehe!

My Girls, My Boys

Today is Friends day. For some reason, I was able to talk to my best girl friends in this whole wide world. I miss them badly you know. Yes, we don't talk as much as we did when we were in high school but I am genuinely happy for knowing the simple fact that no matter what we do, no matter how long we don't see each other or we don't hear from each other, the bond still remains.

I miss my boys too, but this is not the time of the year yet. Maybe this coming sembreak, I'll see all of them. I got news about one of them though, and I am happy for him. Haha. His parents got him a brand new BMW topdown (for the sole reason that he's been studying daw! But aren't we really supposed to study, huh? huh?!) If I could remember right, his "supposedly old" car is relatively new at that! Haaay!

Bottomline, I am dying to see them again. Times like these. Big sigh. Smooches and hugs for you guys muna now. I'll see you soooon.

Time Is Nothing

Of course I know about time travelling, but I never realized how real it could be until I finished this book. I have been meaning to read this since summer but I only had my grip on it just a few weeks ago. Dear God, Audrey Niffenegger is awesome. What more can I say?

This is not just your ordinary love story, it is so genuine you wouldn't even think it's within reach. One moment you are tensed, wary that Henry might just disappear and the next, you're drenched with tears. Admittedly, I was carried away by it, I felt like I was Clare and Henry at the same time. I felt as if I was part of the story. I hoped for their joy. I hoped for love.

"Had we but world enough and time. ... I want you, here and now. Here and now."

The summary of Henry's love for Clare was summarized in a letter which was supposed to be read by Clare after his death.

"Clare, I want to tell you, again, I love you. Our love has been the thread through the labyrinth, the net under the high-wire walker, the only real thing in this strange life of mine that I could ever trust. Tonight I feel that my love for you has more density in this world than I do, myself: as though it could linger on after me and surround you, keep you, hold you. ... "

"... When I was young, I didn't understand, but now I know, how absence can be present, like a damaged nerve, like a dark bird."

"... I love you always. Time is nothing."

Time is nothing. Clare is strong, for always waiting for him. They say all people have a cross to bear, but in this book, you'll see Henry's is matchless. And when you place your heart into the story, when you truly immerse yourself in it, you'll be amazed and inspired by how love manages to make everything seem to be a lot more easier.

It's time well spent. I'll definitely wait for the movie.

Cheers, to love and life.

Euro Films Class Is Love

Senior Year's First Sem classes seem to be not so interesting for me. Thank God for the free elective, I at least got to choose a class I really want to be in.

Euro Films it is.

Every week, I am looking forward to Friday, not only because of the fact that that's the last day of schoolweek but because that is the day where I get to enjoy a subject. True enough, you've gotta save the best for last. My cool-school-Friday starts at 1030am with Philo. ( I was expecting this class to be fun actually, but no. I didn't get Sir Roy to be my prof because of my high, (not to mention, very very very high) random number. Lucky first batchers! Anyway, it ends with a 3-hour class that starts at 130pm with Euro Films.

For one, I find it amazing to be in my old parish priest's (Father Nick Cruz) class. I was about 5 when he still preaches in our village. It's quite cool to see him teach. He's cute and funny. :)

Yesterday, we watched a French Film entitled The Choir and admittedly, I cried again. Hehehe! It was my second time to cry in Euro Films class. I actualy tried my best to eliminate the weeping sound because I don't want my classmates to know how much of an emo I am when to think that the movie isn't even a tearjerker. Haha!

Oh well, that's how I am, baka masakit lang mata ko nun. :p

On Seeing Dripping Blood

I got off from class at 1:30 this afternoon. I was in a hurry to go home coz I have loads of stuff to do, mom's errands, personal duties. I rode an FX in Tandang Sora after five minutes of waiting under the ever-reliable gray umbrella that shed me from the scorching heat of the sun. As usual, my mind flew and thought things 'til I get to my next stop.

Out of nowhere, the Sulpicio disaster crossed my mind. I remembered seeing this lady in wild hysterics on TV who hasn't found her sister days after the ship had sunk and simultaneously remembered how I felt. I think I felt nothing. I dunno. And then I said to myself, maybe life's like that. Life goes on no matter how hard it has become for others. Then I sighed.

So went back to texting. Thought about my own life. Tried ironing out some of my impulsive plans.

I was so near my destination until one lady from my left asks the driver to pull-off.

Passenger: Manong, pwede po dito?
Driver: Oo, sige. Dahan dahan ah.

Well for a second I thought, yea good. Coz I was seated at the rightmost part of the vehicle. No more hassles.

Split second, I found myself seeing a man terribly lying down the road. He got up trying to get his motorcycle, with his right ear dripping with blood.

"Oh my God! Shit!" That was all I had to say, at first. Having seen the driver hesitant to get his ass off his smelly FX, I felt like I wanted to slap him hard. "Dalhin na sa hospital!!," I then insisted. My heart was jumping really hard as if I knew the man involved. If you still can't imagine how extreme the impact was, imagine this. The door couldn't be closed. No more. Lumipad yung mama.

That incident struck me hard that I said to myself, "I felt it." As if a part of me blames myself for also wanting the lady passenger to get off through the wrong door. As if he was a family member. As if I wanted to shout at the lady for being such an idiot! As if I wanted to blame the driver for allowing the passenger to get off through that stupid door.

It only took a split second. A split second, that was all it was.

So, She's A Beagle

Since I feel really overwhelmed about having Phoebe, I can't help but share funny stories about her to my friends. And they ask, what's her breed? And I usually replied with "with all honesty, I don't know." Hehe! Not until a while ago. I was seraching for a layout for one of my sites when I stumbled upon this cutesy one with a pup that look just like Phoebe, with the layout name: Beagle. :)

I called my dad for him to see the picture, and he said, "Serious? Hindi ba si Phoebe yan?" Hehehe!

So there, Phoebe, you're a Beagle indeed. :)

Phoebe, Phoebe, Phoebe.

This is all about you, baby. :)

My God, before I finally had Phoebe, my dad kept throwing "Pre-Pet-Test-Questions" at me as if there's no tomorrow. Examples of which would be: a. Are you willing to bathe her everyday? b. Are you willing to clean her poo/pee? c. Are you willing to feed her? d. Are you willing to take responsibility of her actions? And the list went on. We even got into fights because of this little angel. But it was all worth it.

Sleeping Phoebe. zzzZzZZzz..

Sleeping in the laundry. Nakataas pa yung ears. Haha! Ang haba na ng hair, papagroom na kitaaa! How dirty can your paws get, huh?!

Really have to watch her eat because she might switch foods with Kiara, our pet kitten. Haha!

Playing with Phoebe simply relieves me from stress. Haaaay.

I'm not really what you'd call an animal lover but with Phoebe, I realized, (quoting Patty Laurel) it was love at first sight.

So Long, But Yep! Still Here!

I have been really busy lately but a lot of stuff are still yet to be done. I do have my hands full right now but I'm happy, just exhausted at times. Andaming foregone opportunities to write here and I am medyo regretful because those were the times na I felt intensely happy or sad.

Recent happenings, I had my hair cut and colored again, yipeeee! I met a new stylist, a real fun dude, (dingga)!, I am meeting new friends because of my Orsem family, I am busy with RecWeek, (good Lord please let this end), I am preparing myself emotionally for my last year in college, I am gonna have a puppy (which Cielo kept naming Jamie and I kept telling her I already decided a name for her which is Phoebe, ((Cielo agreed with me kanina lang!)) I am gonne get her next week) and I have an online shop, Mineral Skin Treats where I am selling all-natural cosmetics you'll surely love. :)

I missed you, my pixiedust. I'll post pictures here soon. Hello JUNE 2008! Be great to me! :)

Because I Love Kids

I met with my cousins last Sunday and had few glasses of drinks in Eastwood. Kind of a last hurrah before Miko leaves for Zamboanga again. It was my first time to see Miko after 18 years 'coz my family doesn't really go to Zamboanga for vacations. Secret: My mom's scared of the place. But that's where my dad grew up! Hehe! Haven't gotten the pics from Ness yet so to follow nalang.

This post is really dedicated to my gorgeous niece and nephew, Cielo and Matthew.

I'm very malambing to kids and I love playing with them even if I look really stupid. Like last Sunday, Cielo and I were playing the famed "Chase meeee!!!" game and we were squeaking like crazy and then I realized, "wala tayo sa bahay". Hello?! She was forcing me pa nga to play Hide and Seek! Beat that! Pinigilan ko lang siya. Hahaha! But it was okay, I missed Cielo terribly. I love this pretty kid so much, we can actually speak on the phone for hours. I love her wits and humor!

While we were strolling in Eastwood, we saw this booth offering personalized gift items through caricatures and then I told Cielo, "Do you want one? I'll put your face on the picture and then I'll place it there. (pointing to where the Fazoli's sign is)" then she said, "You know what Tita Jam, if you do that, I will never ever go here again 'coz its so nakakahiya!" Malanding bata. Hihihi!

It's really funny how I can be the old one and at the same time the one who gets scared of her threats. She was playing with the water at the sidewalk when I told her to be careful because she might slip and when she slips, I'll laugh, (then I demonstrated the laugh) like that. She stared at me blankly and said, "Hey tita Jam, if I slip and then you laugh, I won't talk to you anymore." Hahaha! Naku, is this like a training before I transfer the crown? Hehehe!

And then one time, we were on the phone and then she screamed like a teenager and said, "Oh my god, it's Hana Kimi na!" and then asked, "Do you watch it Tita Jam?" I said "No, sige nga, go convince me, why should I watch it?" She said, "Because it's cool, Joey really is a girl, but she cut her hair so that she could go to (the guy's, forgot the name she said) the guy's school. And its nakakakilig." Hahaha! Ok, convinced. She has lots of stories to tell and I always feel like I miss her. I always want to go there and she always pushes me to but it's just so far away!!! Grrr

Anyhooo, because I'm a very proud tita, I'll share with you the pictures of their pictorials. Mas vain pa sakin diba?


My strawberry shortcake!


Matthew, so cute!


Matthew aka Zanjo in Bora! Bring it on hunkie! Smooochies mwamwamwamwamwaaaah!

I'm a frustrated model (shy flirty laugh! nyeee!!!) so I'm very happy that these little angels are frequently having a spot in the mag, Smart Parenting.

Cielo with mom, yes ate Kate at last may exposure din haha!


Matthew with mom Kate, but this time minimum exposure for my cuz!


Spot the cutest! Say Cielo, say Cielo!!! Of course it's Cielo! Right? Right!


Realization: Parang dati lang kami yung ganito kaliit. Oh my God. Matanda na ako. :|

Finally.

A feel-good movie, at last! :)

When I reached "that" scene, I remembered my friend who always acts as a kuya to me when he said, "No Jam, 'di ka pwede dun okay? Bata ka pa!"

Hey kuya, I can handle the likes of those scenes wiiith ease, dontchaworry! :D Yun lang pala, eh? Haha! Kidding! ;)

I guess I'm not that "bata" now after all.

Jamie Faith

What Jamie Faith Means

You are fair, honest, and logical. You are a natural leader, and people respect you. You never give up, and you will succeed... even if it takes you a hundred tries. You are rational enough to see every part of a problem. You are great at giving other people advice. You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection. You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive. You have the classic "Type A" personality. You are confident, self assured, and capable. You are not easily intimidated. You master any and all skills easily. You don't have to work hard for what you want. You make your life out to be exactly how you want it. And you'll knock down anyone who gets in your way! You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing. You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long. You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start. You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone. You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together. At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together. You are loving, compassionate, and ruled by your feelings. You are able to be a foundation for other people... but you still know how to have fun. Sometimes your emotions weigh you down, but you generally feel free from them. You are a seeker. You often find yourself restless - and you have a lot of questions about life. You tend to travel often, to fairly random locations. You're most comfortable when you're far away from home. You are quite passionate and easily tempted. Your impulses sometimes get you into trouble. You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out. Success comes rather easily for you... especially in business and academia. Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. You're a strong person.

What's Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

Scaredy-Cat Scares Her Scare

I don't wanna sound arrogant in this post so I'm begging you, please don't think of this entry as something that is. I just wanna speak my mind about something that is making me feel really guilty and anxious.

These past few days, I've been receiving calls from good companies, Summit and Accenture to be particular, asking me to start my internship. A part of me wanted to accept the job but there are several reasons why I chose not to. I remember that I really wanted to be an intern but as time passed, my passion for it slowly diminished. And then I realized that one reason that keeps me wanting to have an OJT is because I feel pressured that my friends are currently having one. Another reason is that I want it to appear on my resume.

Well, I don't want to enter into one just because I feel pressured to do so. I want to be really into it if in case I accept one. I'm just worried about regretting these decisions I have made now in the near future. Haaay nako, Jam. You truly are a worry wart.

To give you a breather, I decided to rest my mind regarding this matter and aimed to watch a funny movie. My sister just gave me another movie file last night entitled P2.


All this time, I thought that this is a light and funny movie. At 11pm last night, I was alone outside and played the film. The creepy soundtrack made me walk briskly to my room instead. Haha. The last time I had my heart broken because of OJT issues, I found myself watching The Brave One. Then now, P2? Is this to make my heart stronger? I didn't find it a good movie, but it was enough to relegate my worries and keep them under my bed. :)

I'm Inlove With A

W760i. Tsk. You're beautiful. Sira pa naman phone ko ngayon. I want you.

In time you'll be mine. But for now, here, you'll stay and wait with me.

The Sweetest Dream

I find it odd whenever I grasp a vivid memory of my dreams after long hours of slumbers. When I was younger, I used to make a fuss over it. I remember myself asking older people if dreams come true when you remember them when you wake up. If it was a good one, I wanted to make myself believe that someday, it'll come true. But if it was the other way around, I immediately dumped the thought 'coz just thinking about it made me sick.

Last night, I had the sweetest dream after a long long time. Well, I woke up happy. Yes, with a sweet smile on my face. Now, thinking about it, I feel so weird because I can really visualize it, as if I'm still dreaming.

Well, it started with me playing beach volleyball with some friends until I found myself covered with unbearable darkness in an afternoon. As if the clouds and the heavens were angry real bad. The waves were getting mightier and were beginning to hurt my skin, strain my muscles. The next thing I knew, there was a huge huge wave that was out to get me.

Okay, so now you might be wondering what I did about it. Well, in my dream I was still calm and was still able to think of a unique idea. The people were panicking already, they were running like crazy without anywhere to go. So, I went to a post, hugged it really tight and promised to not let go. Can you imagine how I looked?! Hilarious! But I was serious, man. I say this was a unique idea because I was the only one who thought about it. And then the rest followed. Crazily, I felt proud about it because for some strange and foolish reason, the huge and mighty wave did not eat us. Parang binasa lang kami pero nansusugat! Grabe, I felt like I was someone from the movie Poseidon! This wasn't where the sweet part emerged. It's actually funny to extract something sweet about this beginning of a dream but it actually occurred!

What happened next? The next scene felt like I was playing the "Hardest Game On Earth". I said to myself, when the waves get off the shore, I'll move quickly, run and pass the back stage! There was a back stage at a beach! Sobrang weird. I was desperately aiming to catch my breath and at last felt secured when I found my family in a resto. Siyempre, dahil lahat ng tao sinasabing matakaw ako, parang na-instill yata yun sa mind ko and hanggang sa panaginip, matakaw pa rin daw ako. Siyempre, nagpalibre ako kasi nasurvive ko yung tsunami on that part of the resort! See, my dream's really weird. Tsunami that chooses only a part of a resort. Like, around 15 feet lang yung inoccupy na part. Haaay. Until...

I saw him. We were buying a snack from the same stand. And he called me by my nickname.

Jam, right?

I was surprised because I didn't even think that he knows me. And he knows my name. It felt like that's the sweetest time my name's ever spoken. A conversation started and then we felt really comfortable being together. We had dinner and spent the night together. It felt as if we were beyond the friendly stage and in my dream it was official. Friends know about us. We were sweet. And as we went home, he leaned his head on my shoulder and I leaned mine against his head. Slowly, I closed my eyes as he clasped his hand with mine.


In my dream I was thinking, "Is this just a dream? Is this just a dream?" And my eyes opened, with my niece hugging me, making me feel really missed.

Yes, a dream, it was.

Soter, Oh So Not For Me.

It has not worked. It is not working. It will not work.

I guess I know myself better than anybody else after all.

Ciao!

The Brave One

A movie starred by Jodie Foster. It's about a woman who struggles to gain recovery from a brutal attack that killed his fiance and also almost took her life. You really gotta have a brave heart to stand this flick.

What a great way to heal a broken heart. :| Time to dance, Jam.

Vacacion Verano Parte Dos: Puerto Galera 2008

And so I guess the stress was all worth it.

It was our first time to go out of town. We just usually hang out, grab some drinks and we're good. Our summers naman were usually spent with our families. That's why I really wanted it to happen, with all of us present. But due to fortuitous events, only four of us made it this year.

This is the start of our yearly outings, my beloved friends. But I am not planning next year's. Haha! Cheers to more salty waters and mighty waves! Or cheers to more travels, anywhere!

Savoring Oreo and the moment with my Mader Mitch. Yes, this is how we call each other ever since high school. :)


Keno, Me and Jojo at Batangas Port


Us four, "The Founders", while waiting for the boaaat! 9:45 huh, it's 12 already! Whaatta liar barker, and oh! Paper sched!


Finally.



Enjoying the splash!


This is my favorite. After x number of tries. Nagawa rin. Haha!


And dahil napagtripan ako ng mga mahal kong kaibigan pati na rin ng mabuting alon... Captured! Spell poise, Jam. Spell poise.


Heart Attack! Funny and heart-grabbing game! I lost myself for 10 minutes!




Taken by Hazel, the friendly server. :)


Meet Hazel...


The cliff Keno and I love! Jojo's sleeping. Tinatamad pa si Mitch bumaba. Sayang ang view!



Sun sun sun 'til my skin's burnt...


Till we see again, White Beach!



I am lucky to have these people in my life. This may sound really cheesy but my barkada really is a priceless gift from heaven. :) I know that they are the people who won't ever turn their backs on me, (aside from my family). No matter how harsh I become. How harsh we become. Basta we know naman kasi na we just want the best for each other, always.

Funny but sometimes, it feels as if we are the stars of One Tree Hill or Friends. Next time, I'll write about who's who and why. Haha. Mukhang fun eh.

Joey, Jayvie, Mader Ruth, Loyce, you're missed! :(

More pictures on my multiply site www.starburssst.multiply.com
*Some of the pictures are grabbed from Jojo's cam.