Because I Love Kids

I met with my cousins last Sunday and had few glasses of drinks in Eastwood. Kind of a last hurrah before Miko leaves for Zamboanga again. It was my first time to see Miko after 18 years 'coz my family doesn't really go to Zamboanga for vacations. Secret: My mom's scared of the place. But that's where my dad grew up! Hehe! Haven't gotten the pics from Ness yet so to follow nalang.

This post is really dedicated to my gorgeous niece and nephew, Cielo and Matthew.

I'm very malambing to kids and I love playing with them even if I look really stupid. Like last Sunday, Cielo and I were playing the famed "Chase meeee!!!" game and we were squeaking like crazy and then I realized, "wala tayo sa bahay". Hello?! She was forcing me pa nga to play Hide and Seek! Beat that! Pinigilan ko lang siya. Hahaha! But it was okay, I missed Cielo terribly. I love this pretty kid so much, we can actually speak on the phone for hours. I love her wits and humor!

While we were strolling in Eastwood, we saw this booth offering personalized gift items through caricatures and then I told Cielo, "Do you want one? I'll put your face on the picture and then I'll place it there. (pointing to where the Fazoli's sign is)" then she said, "You know what Tita Jam, if you do that, I will never ever go here again 'coz its so nakakahiya!" Malanding bata. Hihihi!

It's really funny how I can be the old one and at the same time the one who gets scared of her threats. She was playing with the water at the sidewalk when I told her to be careful because she might slip and when she slips, I'll laugh, (then I demonstrated the laugh) like that. She stared at me blankly and said, "Hey tita Jam, if I slip and then you laugh, I won't talk to you anymore." Hahaha! Naku, is this like a training before I transfer the crown? Hehehe!

And then one time, we were on the phone and then she screamed like a teenager and said, "Oh my god, it's Hana Kimi na!" and then asked, "Do you watch it Tita Jam?" I said "No, sige nga, go convince me, why should I watch it?" She said, "Because it's cool, Joey really is a girl, but she cut her hair so that she could go to (the guy's, forgot the name she said) the guy's school. And its nakakakilig." Hahaha! Ok, convinced. She has lots of stories to tell and I always feel like I miss her. I always want to go there and she always pushes me to but it's just so far away!!! Grrr

Anyhooo, because I'm a very proud tita, I'll share with you the pictures of their pictorials. Mas vain pa sakin diba?


My strawberry shortcake!


Matthew, so cute!


Matthew aka Zanjo in Bora! Bring it on hunkie! Smooochies mwamwamwamwamwaaaah!

I'm a frustrated model (shy flirty laugh! nyeee!!!) so I'm very happy that these little angels are frequently having a spot in the mag, Smart Parenting.

Cielo with mom, yes ate Kate at last may exposure din haha!


Matthew with mom Kate, but this time minimum exposure for my cuz!


Spot the cutest! Say Cielo, say Cielo!!! Of course it's Cielo! Right? Right!


Realization: Parang dati lang kami yung ganito kaliit. Oh my God. Matanda na ako. :|

Finally.

A feel-good movie, at last! :)

When I reached "that" scene, I remembered my friend who always acts as a kuya to me when he said, "No Jam, 'di ka pwede dun okay? Bata ka pa!"

Hey kuya, I can handle the likes of those scenes wiiith ease, dontchaworry! :D Yun lang pala, eh? Haha! Kidding! ;)

I guess I'm not that "bata" now after all.

Jamie Faith

What Jamie Faith Means

You are fair, honest, and logical. You are a natural leader, and people respect you. You never give up, and you will succeed... even if it takes you a hundred tries. You are rational enough to see every part of a problem. You are great at giving other people advice. You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection. You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive. You have the classic "Type A" personality. You are confident, self assured, and capable. You are not easily intimidated. You master any and all skills easily. You don't have to work hard for what you want. You make your life out to be exactly how you want it. And you'll knock down anyone who gets in your way! You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing. You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long. You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start. You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone. You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together. At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together. You are loving, compassionate, and ruled by your feelings. You are able to be a foundation for other people... but you still know how to have fun. Sometimes your emotions weigh you down, but you generally feel free from them. You are a seeker. You often find yourself restless - and you have a lot of questions about life. You tend to travel often, to fairly random locations. You're most comfortable when you're far away from home. You are quite passionate and easily tempted. Your impulses sometimes get you into trouble. You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out. Success comes rather easily for you... especially in business and academia. Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. You're a strong person.

What's Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

Scaredy-Cat Scares Her Scare

I don't wanna sound arrogant in this post so I'm begging you, please don't think of this entry as something that is. I just wanna speak my mind about something that is making me feel really guilty and anxious.

These past few days, I've been receiving calls from good companies, Summit and Accenture to be particular, asking me to start my internship. A part of me wanted to accept the job but there are several reasons why I chose not to. I remember that I really wanted to be an intern but as time passed, my passion for it slowly diminished. And then I realized that one reason that keeps me wanting to have an OJT is because I feel pressured that my friends are currently having one. Another reason is that I want it to appear on my resume.

Well, I don't want to enter into one just because I feel pressured to do so. I want to be really into it if in case I accept one. I'm just worried about regretting these decisions I have made now in the near future. Haaay nako, Jam. You truly are a worry wart.

To give you a breather, I decided to rest my mind regarding this matter and aimed to watch a funny movie. My sister just gave me another movie file last night entitled P2.


All this time, I thought that this is a light and funny movie. At 11pm last night, I was alone outside and played the film. The creepy soundtrack made me walk briskly to my room instead. Haha. The last time I had my heart broken because of OJT issues, I found myself watching The Brave One. Then now, P2? Is this to make my heart stronger? I didn't find it a good movie, but it was enough to relegate my worries and keep them under my bed. :)

I'm Inlove With A

W760i. Tsk. You're beautiful. Sira pa naman phone ko ngayon. I want you.

In time you'll be mine. But for now, here, you'll stay and wait with me.

The Sweetest Dream

I find it odd whenever I grasp a vivid memory of my dreams after long hours of slumbers. When I was younger, I used to make a fuss over it. I remember myself asking older people if dreams come true when you remember them when you wake up. If it was a good one, I wanted to make myself believe that someday, it'll come true. But if it was the other way around, I immediately dumped the thought 'coz just thinking about it made me sick.

Last night, I had the sweetest dream after a long long time. Well, I woke up happy. Yes, with a sweet smile on my face. Now, thinking about it, I feel so weird because I can really visualize it, as if I'm still dreaming.

Well, it started with me playing beach volleyball with some friends until I found myself covered with unbearable darkness in an afternoon. As if the clouds and the heavens were angry real bad. The waves were getting mightier and were beginning to hurt my skin, strain my muscles. The next thing I knew, there was a huge huge wave that was out to get me.

Okay, so now you might be wondering what I did about it. Well, in my dream I was still calm and was still able to think of a unique idea. The people were panicking already, they were running like crazy without anywhere to go. So, I went to a post, hugged it really tight and promised to not let go. Can you imagine how I looked?! Hilarious! But I was serious, man. I say this was a unique idea because I was the only one who thought about it. And then the rest followed. Crazily, I felt proud about it because for some strange and foolish reason, the huge and mighty wave did not eat us. Parang binasa lang kami pero nansusugat! Grabe, I felt like I was someone from the movie Poseidon! This wasn't where the sweet part emerged. It's actually funny to extract something sweet about this beginning of a dream but it actually occurred!

What happened next? The next scene felt like I was playing the "Hardest Game On Earth". I said to myself, when the waves get off the shore, I'll move quickly, run and pass the back stage! There was a back stage at a beach! Sobrang weird. I was desperately aiming to catch my breath and at last felt secured when I found my family in a resto. Siyempre, dahil lahat ng tao sinasabing matakaw ako, parang na-instill yata yun sa mind ko and hanggang sa panaginip, matakaw pa rin daw ako. Siyempre, nagpalibre ako kasi nasurvive ko yung tsunami on that part of the resort! See, my dream's really weird. Tsunami that chooses only a part of a resort. Like, around 15 feet lang yung inoccupy na part. Haaay. Until...

I saw him. We were buying a snack from the same stand. And he called me by my nickname.

Jam, right?

I was surprised because I didn't even think that he knows me. And he knows my name. It felt like that's the sweetest time my name's ever spoken. A conversation started and then we felt really comfortable being together. We had dinner and spent the night together. It felt as if we were beyond the friendly stage and in my dream it was official. Friends know about us. We were sweet. And as we went home, he leaned his head on my shoulder and I leaned mine against his head. Slowly, I closed my eyes as he clasped his hand with mine.


In my dream I was thinking, "Is this just a dream? Is this just a dream?" And my eyes opened, with my niece hugging me, making me feel really missed.

Yes, a dream, it was.